FRAMED BEAUTY.

2011-11-29T01:53:00.001-08:00

apple of my eye

2009-12-21T05:32:00.001-08:00

i know i know, why is blogger still keeping my blog alive when i dont even blog.

so now here i am blogging! awesommmmeee!

let's see, plenty of things have taken a change in my life throughout my absence.

i have now been promoted from "struggling with As" to "working full time",

totally missed out the whole "post As/pre-party" period. damn.

so now you see there isnt much to really blog about because lives are usually around

the same god damn thing in this pathetic materialistic world. i mean, i can't deny

that i'm not materialistic. i'm working so i can pay of my debts from Mom. and those

are the debts accumulated from buying birthday presents (such as 113 bucks worth of a

denim jacket for Roy) and pampering of myself because i'm suffering from As-trauma.

pimple outbreak. severe accumulation of eyerings/eyebags. persistent body aches. and..the list goes on.

okay i dont even know what im ranting about so i guess you should get the picture

about what life is really now. cept that i still have someone to look forward to everyday

even for just a few minutes. Roy.

2009-03-28T23:44:00.000-07:00

Last post: start of 2009
Now: End of March 2009

hmmm. not that long of a difference anyway. well, i decided to come back after i was updated by the 'interaction' between blogs and how interconnected we are through this silly webpage! haha.
oh well, met up with the girls yesterday for a super lonnnnngggg time. like ive not seen manda
and youjing for maybe a year?! Jingos flying off to Beijing. lucky for her and poor me have to still tolerate the tortures of the big momma at the end of the year.
Actually i dont understand why people can sit at the blog sites and think of things to actually entertain people when they bloghop. cos its like major weird to air out something that happens every single day. guess its just my life thats awfully mundane.revolving around the same people and chores to do like pathetic school hours. sighhhhh.

2009-01-01T06:47:00.001-08:00

tell me how do you welcome in the new year?
my beasty boyfriend suggested..photography at Sentosa. walla.

its not as if we love basking under the sun, or rather baking and melting,

having humongous SLRs and DSLRs glued to our eye socket,

but we just wanted to try something different yet enjoyable nonetheless

instead of the usual meetups in town, walking aimlessly, sulking cos we don't

have enough money to get that pretty frock or drooling over the way-over priced

Japanese meals ( his appetite is incomparable )

So, it boiled down to a romantic double couple date out with Marcus and Big Fish too.

we didn't swander ourselves there till the party people came in for the Siloso Beach Party,

didn't know if it was much of a blast because the only pyrotechnics/laser show that i saw

which actually interests me was the Song of the Sea show! haha.

got down to the cliche "must-see fireworks" display at Clarke Quay which we waited

for half an hour but was irritatingly blocked by the damn Standard Chartered building.

Baby's surprise message for our 2nd month and new year message got lost somewhere

in the cells of my phone and by that time i was merely awake.

Still we cramped our asses into the sardined packed train and went down to Pasir Ris park

to join Qiupeng and Jiawei who had their countdown admist the breezes and saltwater. Hah.

stayed the night in their tent and challenged kites in the morning. Hello 2009.

2008-12-27T01:55:00.000-08:00

Aloha living beings.

And a belated Merry Christmas, especially to those who spent a white christmas if you get what i mean. Heh. oh well, i found something interesting, yes something that maybe a few millions have not set their eyes upon.

Hows that for a feast on yhe eyes? betcha never ever imagined how elephant foetuses look lke inside their huge mommy huh. plenty more to go, hop on yall!

Now guys, watch where that peehole is aiming at. Haw haw.

MERRY BENDY CHRISTMAS!

Sorry humans, too many years of captivity, we now own your sorry asses. \_/

Yours sincerely,
Your Parrots, Birds and Goldfishes

Nikon cameras are hell of a good shit. dont get it? click to enlarge the picture. ;)

not everyone is as rich as you faggot. now live with it.

Smoking and own a spoilt ipod? plus mommy and daddy doesnt know you're smoking.
HERES THE BIG SOLUTION!

want more? likecool.com

2008-12-08T07:19:00.000-08:00

okay i know i know.

i've neglected you for far tooooo long and you have gotten rusty unknowingly that is why

this stupid page is so laggy! maybe no one even comes by here anymore well except some
nosey parkers i suppose.

oh well. i can now declare that i have officially been to Korea, sat on her

butt and ate her share of food supplies. it was one hell of a good time.

2008-10-02T20:45:00.000-07:00

fine i guess its the cold feet that you get before exams

and you just wanna leave everything behind, start a bonfire of books

and weeeeeed your life away.

but once you're in it, its just the momentum that carries you away.

so i took a chill pill and got carried away.

(but i'm still sure i'll fail maths today)

2008-09-23T08:07:00.000-07:00

shoulden't be here.

should be grabbing hair and biting pen tip frantically flipping through Econs notes.

how how how? this is ridiculous!

who the hell in the right mind would seriously apply for JC and self-incarcerate themselves into this torment of paper-frenzy? shyyyyyyttttt. what the fuck was i seriously thinking at that time? yes yes, i should be sprinting to the GO and snatch that withdrawal form from the desk clerk but can i let it go just like that? the life that i had planned infront of me at the beginning of the year. is it worth it? i need answers.

shouldent be here.shouldent be in this mess.

2008-08-31T22:39:00.000-07:00

so what if i saw Boys like Girls LIVE last night., head-banging and screaming till
my lungs shrivels up?

so what if i got involved in the most gruesome and violent mosh in a
pathetically-gravelised drenched mosh pit at Baybeats when Caracal
was bellowing on stage?

so what if cheap thrills were like sneaking into overaged parties at the age
of silly seventeen and enjoying night-long flows of booze with new found friends
and getting so wasted after that you spent the whole morning nursing a hangover
or two?

has it been beneficial?

i realised i've wasted my life away,

it's too late for a turnback.
does it give me that promotional marks to get my ass up into J2?
will it bring my parents back together again?

it's not able to revive the times when i saw a meaning to pursue school,
to not come back to a broken home with parents hurling spiteful vulgarities at each other
or being the object of anger-venting by your own parent who swore to protect you wholeheartedly.

is there even a meaning in life anymore?

2008-08-28T20:38:00.000-07:00

HAPPPPPPPY TIMMMMMESSSSSSS!
HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY MR BILLY, if you happen to come by my blog
i know you like to sneak up on people's blog after you have finished reading
your news online. HAHA.
sorry i didn't go to school today, :/ but at least i made that flag for you luh!
oh welll, happy times today. Gonna meet Jas and Neh for lunch cos it's
Jasmine's Birthday! (belated) and tonight is the night. Next stop: clarke quay.
well hopefully that Jaspy got me an IC. :/

2008-08-19T08:04:00.000-07:00

Firstly, don't call me your GIRL. i'm so fucking over it, and that means i'm allowed to hang out with whoever i please and you have no fucking rights to have qualms over it. Furthermore, i'm not that ungrateful, who was the one who plugged in his Ipod and chose to shut off from all of us?

Secondly, i didn't ask you to hear me out on my problems, you effing volunteered.
do you know what does volunteering mean? it means offering yourself wholeheartedly to help someone in need. i didn't beg you to lend me your ears and your shoulders. i dont need it anyway, because i didnt expect you to come one round and ask for something in return. you know that just reflects badly upon your character, im not blaming you for your sensitive fetish, how you actually try to possess your FRIEND who you friggin smittened. see the past tense? its over.

Thirdly, i swear i did not scold you in the cinema. why the hell would i? so i suggest you better do some soul searching and get your facts right. if you wanna use that excuse to bring someone down when you're just feeling that prick of jealousy. and i didn't say i wanna sit with Axel either alright. i can't believe you actually have that thinking. whose the promiscious one? Vanjill, Sophia? arent they your fantasizing destinations? Grow up a little alright? it'll do you and the people around you some good. seriously.

i don't wanna waste my time on such childish remarks that you twisted up. i wanted to sort things out but you just chose to sulk in one corner, curse and swear the whole damn world and your friends , showing your ego. its not gonna help at all. i really hope you woke up and face it. the world doesnt revolve around you alone. neither does the jewellery box.

2008-08-14T08:07:00.000-07:00

i might as well smash the keyboard now;omg.

motherfucking brown cow better not lemme see your face again if not i'll smash your balls with a nutcracker i swear and then feed it to your wives in your cramped up flat.

people beware, cross on the fucking lines of the ZEBRA CROSSING, if not this horror teacher from a school somewhere in Woodlands will beat the balls out of you with his smelly armpit muscles. Call himself a teacher while using vulgarities and showing no road respect or safety and when asked to move aside by a STUDENT, he searches his vocab bank and only managed to grapple with " YOU SHUT UP, I SAID YOU SHUT UP!" if you love to scream so much go scream at the many children you guys love to produce,loser. And then don't suck up to the civil force, going all melty infront of the police that we JC kids 'bullied' and kicked your ass. look dude, your wasting our time,we have brains to fill up ya know? we are just gonna grow older and replace you.oh wait, your just a discipline master, anyone can do that! we,brains, just pee on you man. and oh yeah, we are JC students,its a big deal messing with us you know,duh. because why? we are intellectually abilitised to compose beautifully twisted tales about your 'awesome and manly' behaviour that you just put up infront of both pedestrians and drivers, i sweetly hope that one has actually a mind to Stomp your fuck face up. and being intellectual means we write influentially that might just get your career into hot soup,like say the Forum and oh maybe a letter directly to your boss at MOE? sounds better for you? sounds screwed aint it? so maybe i suggest you think twice before you even pick up a bicker with us. Or maybe you would like us to collate newspaper articles on how teachers get fucked up real bad by students, FOC. Remember to paste it everywhere you go so as to remind you.however you can solve it all by just pasting at your damn forehead. haha. we got your car plate number dude.

Told you to move your car,don't want. police ask then move,why scared they spotcheck to find bombs or hiding your fellow Mas S ah? oooooh,terrorist.faster call police! get reward! $$$

2008-08-13T08:08:00.000-07:00

i really wanna spend my life with you.
i'm sorry.

i know she has the oh-so-cute taiwanese girl look, the boobs and all that im not

sure if i have but whatever it takes.you know i'll always be there for you

our pictures together lines the walls of my room and forever there it'll be.

my rose; aieshiteru.

2008-08-12T01:47:00.000-07:00

aristocrats beautifully attired,i like.

i'm effing addicted to their song.

japanese metal,ずっと!

if anyone of you guys are interested, check out their songs.

i recommend " The Revenant Choir" :D

2008-07-28T03:50:00.001-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! yay,i'm like what SEVENTEEN already. :D

not termed 'just-turn-sixteen.so can go in club and NC16 movie' kinda thing already.

it wasn't much of a big hoo-ha because i'm not those rich ass kids on Sweet Sixteen on MTV

where they get kick ass birthday bashes and posh cars when they are only fucking sixteen.

And so this was how it went, at least i had a sweet dinner at Dempsey with my old ones the night

before.

(Dad, i kow you spent a bomb because i coulden't eat solids for two days and i ate everything i could that night at Demps. HAHA. i'm your mother-fuckin daughter. and its her birthday)

i skipped church the day itself though, I'm sorry Lord but you see i'm biggest on my birthday.

met my dearly missed girlfriends for lunch. they insisted that i tried Din Tai Fung because i was so suaku not having tried it yet. okay, so the Xiao Long Baos were great. but they didn't have my fav dimsum. Haha.

We didn't stop there, Spaggedies were appealing. We ended up stuffing our stomachs again. Haha. ( no wonder, my stomach flu kicked in again. :/ )

what can i say? i love my girlfriends. and yes, Jasmine, till our coffins we lie.

P.S : i did stare at the card for 1 and half hours just to make you happy. hahahahah. thanks guys for the get-together. :D

2008-07-07T08:35:00.000-07:00

Thinking back, thinking of you

Summertime think it was June

Yeah think it was June

Laying back, head on the grass

Chewing gum having some laughs

Yeah having some laughs.

You made me feel like the one

Made me feel like the one

The one

Drinking back, drinking for two

Drinking with you

When drinking was new

Sleeping in the back of my car

We never went far

Didn't need to go far
I don’t know where we are going now

Wake up call, coffee and juice

Remembering you

What happened to you?

I wonder if we’ll meet again

Talk about life since then

Talk about why did it end

I don’t know where we are going now

So take a look at me now

2008-06-30T04:47:00.000-07:00

Thanks for breaking my heart.
you lived up to your goddamn name, charmed boy.
it was quite obvious that you weren't gonna be serious, and for me to actually had some
faith in it was really ignorant and naive of me.
I'm not gonna make it melodramatic and
go knocking on your door, going down on my knees and all. I just hope you'll find love one
day and cherish it because you're missing out hell lot. Brainwashing me into thinking that no
other guys are worthy of me and all cept you was the stupidiest thing that i could believe in because those guys have always always been there for me.

Nolite bastardes;

2008-06-25T06:10:00.000-07:00

why does it feel so good to die today?

okay so i passed everything cept my effing GP and i haven gotten
back my maths paper. but still i already passed the minimum
6 points requirement. i still have that strong urge of dropping out of
school! its like a stress pot where all you see are people talking work,
smelling work, doing work and fucking work. urghhhhhhhhhh!

i'm sorry it turned out this way, maybe it was predestined for us
you don't have to continue self incarcenating yourself you know.
it hurts to see you like that. still long way more to my seventeenth,
remember the way i want it to be okay.

2008-06-23T06:00:00.000-07:00

I saw you thought this was gonna be easy,
Well, you're out of luck.
Yeah, let's rewind,
let's turn back time to when you couldn't get it up,
You know what it should've ended there,
That's when I should've shown you the door.
As if that weren't enough to deal with,
You became premature.

I'm sorry if you feel that
I'm being kinda mental,
But you left me in such a state.
But now I'm gonna do what you did to me,
Gonna reciprocate.

2008-06-18T23:32:00.000-07:00

she rose from the dead, under the rauchy waters of holiday homework and remedial classes.

oh whatever. hello.

yeah. i was buried under tonnes of wordy mud. but! i finished every single sickening question already. and oh yes, i'm proud of myself. you can applause if you please. haha.and to add on, i even dragged myself to school surprisingly after clubbing the whole night in MOS on tuesday. hows that for you? huh.

but thats like out of the question!

i'm getting sick of JC life. poly's second intake seems more appealing than that CDG shirt.

oh dear dear dear. On the other hand, my dear boyfriend is gonna get his ass back in S'pore, thats something to look forward to. Like 7 days there, he could have been engaged to a Jap bitch.

2008-05-18T09:59:00.000-07:00

This goes out to the people in Myanmar and China.

Myanmar government, i don't know why the hell are you so effed up

in stocking up the aid and not distributing it out? you like to see dead bodies

floating in rivers, decomposing? how bout if thats your god damn family member there?

people are protesting all over the world. what's the matter with you guys?

are you blind to the mayhem?

corrupted pieces of shit. karma goes round and back on you, i hope.

And china, don't be so stubborn and think that you can handle this all on your own

people are still out there stuck there in the rubble while you're still contemplating

whether to sign the aid agreement form.

I really don't understand whats going on now. With natural disasters flipping everything,

theres still some effed up fellas who think that bombs are in trend or something.

go around planting it in street corner and hide somewhere to see how many people are

blown up into pieces. what has humanity come to? maybe the world is really gonna end with

Mother Earth against us humans. Maybe it's retribution. Maybe it's just us digging our own graves.

this just came into my mind after switching on the news today and seeing the massive

death toll in Myanmar and China, after that the terrorists attacks came on. Never will there be

one day where the news actually reports on something angelic and pleasing?

2008-05-08T06:39:00.000-07:00

oh no i shoulden't be here!
it's like that when you have a laptop and its like ALWAYS around you,
i don't even know why. :/
and theres always this temptation to hit the On button and get hooked onto
shopping online. its sickening.
its even sickening when you hafta mug your arse through the night with essays after essays.
oh my goodness.
Hope summer test passes real real real quick.

The sky is ours to keep tonight
Together in this silent sleep,
we are the mist that fills the air.
Lie still be with me, my love, as always.

when you're damned mugging, you'll come up with cheesy poems
to entertain your boyfriend who is mugging a few blocks away. Lol.
i love you. :D

2008-04-24T07:25:00.000-07:00

" cause it's nine in the afternoon, your eyes the size of the moon "

how can it be nine in the afternoon?
PW is a killer, i spent four friggin hours on the GPP alone.
and nessa didn't come to school today!
oh oh.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRINCESS SERENA!

it's just so miserable that we can't meet up for your birthday,
it's like the first time in four years that we don't have cakes smeared on
each other's faces and four girls posing infront of toilet mirrors cam-whoring.
Like duh, we can't be sharing timetables from different JCs and toilets either
remember there was this thing called the Black book that we keep all the gossips we
could come up with?
its there rotting in my drawer, i think even the pen we stick to it is drying up.
Please don't let this be the end of us.
we were suppose to be at each other's graduation and weddings! Cause bridemaids aren't easy to come by especially when its suppose to be your besties.

2008-04-12T00:38:00.000-07:00

Bump.bum.bump bummmmp.

You laugh until you cry and you cry until you laugh.
And you take that love you made, stick into someone's heart.
I love you.

Happy Birthday Granny! :D

2008-04-10T07:42:00.000-07:00

" You listen to it twice cos the deejay was asleep."

4 months, finally.
okay i'm in my happiest mode of life now.
falalalalala.
sometimes you do get it when you don't give up.
Brenda darling, if you read this, you'll know what to do.

Okay, my class.
2 weirdooooos.
One absolutely crackhead who calls himself Emperor Liu.
talks about how his ancestors were from the Han dynasty
goes on and on on how to be the next President.
and shoots nasty remarks at girls who are totally innocent
gets a sense of satisfaction of actually answering the exact correct
answer when you said it a minute ago.
Evaluate his mental cock-block man!

The other one. total beeeetch.
takes pictures of YOUR medal and post it up as their own on Friendster
brags about a Lamborghini boyfriend who died in a car crash, left a huge
sum of fortune for her.
and still stares at you when everybody in class hates her. talk about trying to
sucking up when she has no more friends you know?
This is straightforward. Wrong breast milk.

Gees, people in this world.
but there are lovely people such as the Lunch@KPT girlfriends!
Chloe, you make me wanna talk to boyfriends all day long.
Brenda, aww i just wanna hug you when i see you.
Qiu Peng, we both went through the hood.
And Nessa, i love you all through the years.

oh he made me like basketball matches.
Ich liebe disch,
star of the CCTV.

2008-03-30T03:32:00.000-07:00

Oh so now you're the one who can go out with girls and i have to be the one
who sits at home and rot?
i didn't date guys after we broke up, you were probably out there licking some
girls pussy for all i know. you just assumed i was doing the exact same things.
maybe you should just come out from your immature mind and start thinking who was
the one who was always there for you. Honestly, you weren't looking out for me, i was the one
looking out for you. All you did was to write me a 3 page long letter and sit at the fountain
looking all miserable but what? with a girl beside you. I so damn wanted to thrash you into
the god damn fountain you know that?

You get drunk, cry and swear. where was i? you blame me for not reaching out to you,
i call you.beep you a thousands over times. you don't answer. and you say a cold turkey
would be the best solution for both of us. or is it just a freaking EXCUSE to get to know other
girls without getting your ass burned? you know it yourself okay?
i probably mean nothing to you at the start, just a one of the passing phase of girls in your life.
just think how much i sacrificed okay dude? Think.

2008-03-28T06:57:00.001-07:00

This blog is stagnant, like where mosquitoes breed in. :/

Had Road run in school just now.and its like 3.2km
i'm uberr proud of myself, i didn't stop throughout the whole thing!
its no more those '100m about to faint and die' kinda feeling anymore
cause i was inhaling too much. Go green people, think about the air instead of
your god damn rotting lungs. yes, so proud i did it.
i came in like 17 can! :DDDD
okay its not that bad showing some ego here anyway.
cause my good friend JingKai just lost his ego to me. LOL.

right i shan't be mean. If he sees this, hes gonna turn me upside down.
and show me thousands of pictures on clowns. :(

2008-03-16T00:16:00.000-07:00

Hello you and you and you again,

Can anyone tell me if Good Friday is a public holiday or a school holiday
or whatever holiday that i don't hafta go to school please?
Lovely Feli wants to go out.and so do i.cos i miss her awesomely much.
and also cos i don't wanna sit in lectures for Econs either.

i Love Earth and green today,
and always remember 'hot seats makes your ass swell'
gosh, i'm uberrrr randomish today.

2008-03-11T00:41:00.000-07:00

Yesterday,
was 'shop-all-you-want' and 'try-something-fad' day
firstly, i hit the streets with BFF MandaL after training.
and! i friggin got my naval pierced.
through the middle of it with the forcep already clammed
i was like what the hell am i doing?
and on the wall of the piercing shop, was a huge newspaper article
" See what S'pore teens are doing to themselves?" and there was this
girl sticking her tongue out with a piercing needle through it.
Ironic isn't it? Lol.
oh well so the damn needle went through.walla some jewel hanging from
your belly. guess we really are materialistic yet daredevilistic? LOL.

And tonight? you should know where i'm going with a big bunch of coolios kids. :D

2008-03-09T04:18:00.000-07:00

And back here,

i didn't make it down to town yesterday to meet my dear girlies
i really need to. seriously.
watched The Leap Years with JingKai recently and i was like thinking
if such things do come true. i mean i was like tearing in the god-damn
cinema next to a guy whose ego i super hated. Lol.
but you're so super nice to me sometimes i have to love you.
Twelve years, talk about two tears being damn long and taking up
your life blah blah. face the fact alright? we're not in the same world okay?

i need to hire someone to do my homework but at the same time feeding
my brain with some knowledge. Lol. theres too much to be done damnit.
That was why i lost to Raymond's persuasion to go to Zouk this Tuesday.
lol. "shagg it out there babey" Siew Qing says. I so will.steammmmmmy

And to my dear Amanda,
Sometimes, God or whoever is up there, chooses to take someone away for
a good reason. Let her go and don't fret over it. Shes an angel now free from pain and
anything hurtful, watching over you and you family alright. I will always be there for you
like how you were for me. I love you as always.

2008-02-25T06:50:00.000-08:00

Guess what?
Lessons have begun.
its like the school already planned our whole year's study plans. DAMN.
thats what you get for being 'gatal' and enter a god-damn JC.
i have what, geography notes that are friggin 4cm thick.yes thick.
thats a hell lot of papers and words in there mind you.
but!
yes, theres always a but.
i've got the ultimately cutely geeky form teacher in the world.
and he is BILLY TAN.
awwww.isn't his name like adorable already?
and i've gotten my DLSR which makes me really excited and jumpy.
because i might be your very next Private I. hoho.\

right this is suppose to be a random post that you happen to think of
when you don't get enough sleep yet you still don't wanna crawl into one
and your mind isn't functioning properly because Nessa says a wooden fountain
and scented joss sticks doesn't allow you to find Inner peace. Instead she makes
you run the treadmill with her in the school's gym and tells you that just behind
the headlights.you see the sunset.take a picture. forgetting that the basketball is
still under the table.gets a really nicee guy to run back to get it while i sit at the grand
stand taking shots of ants and millipedes on the ground.
oh right, goodnight world.

this dude here says he wants to do a Thriller encore.
followed by Chrank that if you don't mind.
"youuuuuuuuuu"

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAYMONDDDo

2008-02-20T20:40:00.000-08:00

I woke up today asking myself if i should skip school today.
because Orientation was sucha bore yesterday.
who cares if we really got back the relics.
i just saw the Numrid lens lying around the foyer yesterday
made up dumb hula hoops and cardboard.
well of course its suppose to made up of junk.if not i would
have stolen it and sold it on Ebay and become the richest 17-year-old alive.
However,
staying at home the whole day to find Inner peace as suggested by
'healthy magazine' got the better of me and not start up National Treasure 3.

I tried by burning some aromatic candles together with cinnamon
with apparently could not be burnt, i don't know why.
and now my whole room smells like some Indian temple. Lol.
maybe, i might just head to the kitchen next and start concocting an unearthly
medical ailment that can maybe cure terrible backaches in a jiffy.
or maybe i could start my own biography so when i die,
someone finds it publishes it and i'll become more reknown then Anne Frank.
why? because i'll add in many unrealistic crap that Inner peace gives.
right.i guess sleeping does the most Inner peace-giving.
so goodnight to those poor warriors in school having to find a fake relic
and listening to old people giving never-ending talks.

And lastly, i've influenced Vanessa to find her own Inner peace.
i told you i was influential.
Oh yeah, I hope the kitties come out to a place where i can actually see them
tonight so Glen won't kill me for having cockroach-fright-night.

Glen with Missy Ginger.

2008-02-16T21:32:00.000-08:00

Maybe somethings will always remain the same

even until the point that we ourselves think it wasn't

even suppose to have started.

there could have been one million over guys

but all they saw was the outside facade

only one was able to see within both beautiful and ugly.

I'm sorry Vday didn't turn out the way it was suppose to be

aieshiteru.

2008-02-13T05:41:00.000-08:00

Hello bloggosphere,

life was pretty much mundane today.
and blogging about it would make this much worse.
and i remembered we did about Freedom of Speech today
during GP lessons. about how we should have the right to say
what we want over the net so we could all get influence and
dominate the government! hahah.
i guess, we are just trying to get attention. why can't all of be stereotypes
and hail to the government? like the communist state.
oh wait, no way. we all have to end up reading the Little Dot Book.

Controversial issues, i shared my fair bit here so Mr P won't complain
that teenagers with blogs like to 'brag' about their pathetic life.

looks like today i'm not about to repeat that
poets are the most romantic people on Earth anymore.
all i wish for Valentine's day is for a reknown poet
from the past century to date me. HAHA.

2008-02-12T06:28:00.001-08:00

Class of 41C Innova JC'08
hows that for a start? fresh new pictures from a different
environment though still in the same uniform.
that's during GP lesson. Well, people. if you have an
impression that GP is a killer subject with comprehensions
that you can't comprehend, vocabularies that are totally
out of this world blah blah blah, fear not! cause, we do podcast
and take continuation pictures in classes!
And, we have debates! Just recently, the topic was
" teenagers can't tell the difference between good or bad in media"
GO PONDER.

oh dear, looks like i'm selling Innova. Its actually really good here.
Seriously.

and, i know i've not been here for long.
because i don't like Economics. It is one horrible subject.
they have so many damn Theories.like who the hell cares man!
again, i'll emphasise that i love Lit. Hahaha.
i idolise my teacher and i absolutely love Shakespeare.
IF he were still alive, i'll marry him.hahhahaha.
poets are just the most romantic things on Earth.haha.

Shakespeare.

Don't you love him?

2008-01-15T06:12:00.001-08:00

i think Lit is really cool.
like seriously, i like the subject!
i get totally awed when the teacher finishes explaining
the true meaning of the poem.
i think poets are the most romantic people on Earth.
so be one to impress me.you'll get extra points. *ahem*

As virtuous men pass wildly away,
And whisper to their souls to go,
Whilst some of their sad friends do say,
"Now his breath goes," and some say, "No."

So let us melt, and make no noise,
No tear-floods, nor sigh-tempests move;
'Twere profanation of out joys
To tell the laity our love.

Moving of th' earth brings harms and fears;
Men reckon what it did, and meant;
But trepidation of the spheres,
Though greater fear, is innocent.

Dull sublunary lovers' love
-whose soul is sense-cannot admit
Of absence, 'cause it doth remove
The thing which elemented it

But we by a love so much refined,
That ourselves know what it is,
Inter-assured of the mind,
Care less, eyes, lips and hands to miss.

Our two souls therefore, which are one,
Though i must go, endure not yet
a breach, but an expansion,
Like gold to aery thinness beat.

If they be tow, they are two so
As stiff twin compasses are two;
Thy soul, the fix'd foot, makes no show
To move, but doth, if th' other do.

And though it in the centre sit,
Yet, when the other far doth roam,
It leans, and hearkens after it,
And grows erect, as that comes home.

Such wilt thou be to me, who must,
Like th' other foot, obliquely run;
Thy firmness makes my circle just,
And makes me end where i begun.

See, the magic of poetry. awwwwww.

2008-01-11T23:32:00.000-08:00

School is boring.
i have to wake up early. :(
duh, which school doesn't have to wake up early.
and also, school makes you learn Economics which i seriously,
till now still do not have an idea what the hell it is about.
i only know its some kind of social science where it brings about
human behavior in why they spent to contribute to the economy
but they bring in weird terms like Macroeconomics, normative analysis?
i thought it was just one whole chunk of calculations! hmmmm.

Anyway, went to Park Royal hotel to celebrate Meimei's 2nd year birthday. :)
not bad after a whole day of mugging and ardous training in school.

Birthday girl.

2008-01-08T06:51:00.000-08:00

alright, that post was a wee bit emotional.
its like that when you take Lit in JC now.
YES! i know, i'm taking LITERATURE! of higher caliber now.woohoooo.
oh well, JC.
is really profound. people don't ask you anymore like ' Eh,after school rokok at the block'
rather they go ' Sorry,regarding your response to question 2,how did you manage?'
told you it was really profound. they are seriously serious can!
i'm still merely enjoying the past few days of lectures though some can really make you
really dead sleepy. And its just the second day! Imagine the rest of the days to come? :(

I'll try to survive.

And lastly, i like my break buddies.
And i love the guy who looks hot in just a white man top.
but looks gay in every other shirt. :)

2008-01-08T06:04:00.000-08:00

Guys, don't fade.
As they said, secondary school friends last the longest throughout
someone's life.
And, i'm referring to those few close friends that were there for me
during secondary school life. Like,the netball girls.
you guys meant the most to me when i first step into Peirce,
it's like Netball was something to call my own.
Where i knew that you guys would always stand up for me,
and also wait for me at the end of the match, never failing to pat me on the back
and said that i had tried my best during the game. Support each other during killer trainings.
And those days when neoprint craze was in the air,we all tried to squeeze into a machine,
trying to get our face in the teeny screen? yes,that was us back then.
Now? All forgotten? Where's the slightest bit of Netball team spirit?
We don't even acknowledge each other when we meet along the streets,
let alone even bothering calling up each other to arrange for more meetups.
Didn't we plan to go back down to Rochor Road to have the beancurd that we had 3 years ago?
Guys, i hope we can still hang out the way we once did. I still think, that little inch of team spirit is still deep down somewhere inside. Mine is still struggling to hold on.
Let us ignite the flame. Once again. I really do miss you guys.way alot.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wH-zK84gaLo
( Watch this again.)

Girls with famous short skirts.

2008-01-01T05:36:00.000-08:00

Hello there, thousand eight sire.

And so, another year has pass.
Leave the bad mementos behind and look forward to a virginal beginning.
Last night, we girls planned to stay over at Icon for the Countdown. Sadly, Serena wasn't able to join us.
at least theres always next year,it's not like as if we aren't gonna see each other again.haha.
We did some shopping in town first before heading down to Marina Bay to catch the fireworks display.
Hows catching it with your besties in the whole wide world plus your ultimate sweet boyfriend? Its :))).
Though we were kinda like arguing bout which is really the Finale,still we were like wowing at the displays.
Not bad for a kick off into the year! :)

After eating into the new year, we went Kbox of all places.haha.
heard that celebrating by singing is quite a good way to scare off the calamitous air round us.
(oh yea,i got this book which is about the Feng Shui of Sheep for 2008, it says we are prone to inauspiciousism this year,so hang up all those amulets or whatever you have.)
We sang till the wee hours of the morning and headed back to Icon.
girlfriends, i'm really honoured to be able to spend my last few hours of 2007 and first few hours of 2008 with you guys! :D

Baby, remember what the Feng Shui book said? HAHA.
hiccups but still we're at it! Thank you for all the times that you tolerated my temper
and going through the ups and downs that i had.
I love you.wholeheartedly.

2007-12-26T21:03:00.000-08:00

My Best Girls,

Though its like really the end of our secondary school years and we'll be going separate ways but we promised to always be there for each other and still come together for drinks and shopping sprees yea? And that we would go for each others' weddings and be the "Best Woman". Haha.
Be our kids godparents and then still come together for Mahjong sessions though i still don't know how to play! But i'll learn cos we all wanna be TaisTais carrying REAL LV and Gucci bags.Walk in to Chanel and just pay for a 2'890 pullover yea? HAHAHAH! And lastly,we'll all age gracefully together and still turn up in walkers or canes to each others' funeral until finally we all meet up there.

Girls, Thanks for always being there.
There will never be a time in my life that i'll forget or leave you guys.

2007-12-24T07:23:00.000-08:00

Going all the way down to Outram Park to pay 30 bucks is not funny at all.
bet most of you guys know why the hell i did that for.haha.
at least some kind soul,my boyfriend, is kind enough to accompany me down. :D

The worst that can happen is that, i have to work on Christmas Eve! :(
and wear dumb Santa's snowcaps giving out sweets.urghhhhh.
well,i still get a free super uber yummy Japanese dish for that. :)

girls will always do what they always do, SHOPPING!
i thought i could spare some time before some guests arrives at my place tonight for a pre-X'mas celebration, so Jasmine dragged me to the nail bar and now we've got pretty nails. :)
but being girls again, we'll always be late.hah.and yes,they arrived before i did.hmmmmm.
and instead of being a nice host, I'm blogging my arse off. :(
girls,will always be girls.

2007-12-23T09:19:00.000-08:00

Thanks Jassminee, for the ticket to Swan Lake! it was like AWESOME and besides that,
i still get to catch up with you guys cept for Serena Guo whose disappearing so well these days.hah!
its okay,christmas i'll get even with her. Can't wait for you guys to come over and have bitch gossips! HAHAH!

oh well, i love you guys!

as well as Dino! :D

2007-12-15T10:25:00.000-08:00

And so, I'm going Innova. Really wonderful.
Jasmine is stuck all alone in CJC.
where she would end up with geeks in the St Vincent De'Paul's Club
or probably the Mathematics Club. :)
Work is like really a dragg now.
It's not fun serving snobs and standing for hours or neither is it interesting
running your arse off in and out of the kitchen and get nagged by dear ol Aunty man.

But Christmas is coming! YAY!
though i'll still be working in the day, i get to hang out with my 3 precious girls at night.
We're having a party! Aren't we like the cooolest?! :D
I miss you guys man.Especially Serena and Vanessa! Jasmine, i still get to hug you at work. !

YAY! Can't wait to watch Warlords with Xuan tomorrow!oh like later.haha.
But i still hafta work at night. :( without Jasmine.which means its a double :(( already.

2007-12-04T07:00:00.000-08:00

Hello bloggosphere.
today was my first day at work and man, was it fun. :D
i love cashing and taking orders.

okay,that was real random.
but hey! i really do love work.
Right Jasmine?

2007-11-29T02:22:00.001-08:00

Thank you Serena, for being there all this while through this dilemma.
He really is a big C. haha.you know what i mean eh.
Hows your first time going down to Holland Village with me as the tour guide! haha.
We'll wait for Jasmine and Vanessa to get the arse back in Singapore before we head out to
more shopping spreeeeees and of course to Eskibar. Remember to bring thick heavy coats!

i love you guys. "D

To my 3 best girls:
here's to the shit we talk,
the guys we stalk,
the way we shop,
the laughs we can't stop,
the gossips we spill,
the looks that could kill.
to having each other's back.
to the next morning getting the facts,
downin the beers and spilling the tears,
we'll stay throughout the years.

2007-11-28T00:17:00.000-08:00

i'm sorry if i ever hurt you.
feelings can't be forced nor stopped.it has to be mutual.
i'm sorry that it never did work out between us.
but to me, you'll still be the nicest person i've ever met on Earth.
sounds like seriously childish but still its true. take my words for that.
once again, i'm sorry.

No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
That truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger, I gotta let my spirit be free

To admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on
And leave you behind

I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize, nothing's broken
No need to worry 'bout everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo

I'm sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror, didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could

Stop, admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I gotta be strong
And leave you behind

2007-11-20T09:15:00.000-08:00

girls who dig FBTs, wear pretty dresses too.

And that was one night only. Peirce Prom'o7

2007-11-14T03:06:00.000-08:00

i know i was suppose to annouce it like 2 days ago.

O LEVEL's are like OVERRRRRR!

i can't believe it myself either. It's kinda weird though.

i still feel a little uncomfortable plopping myself infront of the teevee

while watching Korean dramas.it's like some guilty feeling that i'm suppose to

go back into the room and hit the books.BUT the fact is that i don't have to.

looks like studying has became a habit for me! oh noooo. well,its sure one easy habit to kick i guess.hahah.

And so, the partying began man!

i got my hair done! Wheeeee. :D

and and i just got home from a sleepover at Jasmine's Icon place.

and Attica last night was the suckiest i swear.i was stuck rotting outside

while Jasmine, Youjing and Yunhan were partying their arse off inside! HURRRRR.

but still.it's after Os.everywhere i am is still considered fun.haha.

now.PROM.YESSSSSSS!

2007-11-08T02:56:00.000-08:00

OH YESSSSSSS!

finally it's like the friggin last paper of Os.

i can't wait can.but why the hell must they put it on Monday?

why can't it be tomorrow? URGHHHH.

shyt i really don't feel like going for prom anymore.

it's like theres so many friggin things to prepare.damn.

oh well just make the best out of everything i guess.

toooooodles! i can't wait.i smell freedommmm once again! YAY!

2007-10-31T10:29:00.000-07:00

it feels better off without you.
like seriously.damnit.
it was on your livejournal all along.
you just..coulden't be bothered.

goodbye,

2007-10-19T00:30:00.000-07:00

okay let's see.
i've done with Geography like finally!
Weathering is the disintegration of rocks in situ.
In this process,no transport is involved.Hence,the eroded materials remain
at it's original site.
Weathering of rocks has 3 core groups: Physical.Chemical and Biological.

Physical Weathering.
1.Freeze-Thaw Action.
2.Growth of salt crystals.
3.Pressure Release.
4.Thermal Expansion
5.Hydration

Chemical Weathering.
1.Carbonation
2.Hydration.
3.Oxidation.
4.Solution.

Biological Weathering.
well,its just the trees and insects.

And as for History. I only started for Gorby,oh no!
i think hes a sensible and a good leader.Except for Glastnost which
went a wee bit wrong. haha.
And besides, he likes Louis Vuitton too. :D
i think i should go out and get some fresh air tonight.hmmm.

2007-10-15T03:44:00.000-07:00

I WANNA GO TO DEAFCON 06/

2007-10-13T01:46:00.000-07:00

Guys. I'll miss you all.
Those four years together.were way awesome.

2007-10-11T05:37:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow.

We are graduating. after four years.

The laughters.cries.heartaches.bitchings.quarells that we had,

I will remember each and every single one.

Like in Sec Two. i had this awesomely huge splinter stuck in

my finger, Jasmine got it out for me! how sweet.

And Nessa, my best buddy for all four years.

Through thick and thin.

Sreena. My one hot bitch. Always there to lift me up

after jerks do what they like to do. Haha.

Mandy Pandy. my darling girlfriend, how can i forget you?

My first friend in there. Saw me throughout even how I looked when

i was in Sec One. Urm.i guess i'll leave that out. Heheh.

And yes. The Ten Brothers.

Territory: Thomson Plaza. HAHAH!

We'll mug our arses for that last damn battle

and then Prom! :D

I wanna hug you guys tomorrow!

Now lets just settle on going IJ alright? Haha.

2007-09-30T02:47:00.001-07:00

you're not the guy i used to know anymore.

wanna work things out again.
then i suggest you better change.
apologies can mean everything.
and also nothing.

2007-09-27T23:28:00.000-07:00

just for bites. :D

Smelly Sue.Ugly Betty against Dumb Dick.Fat Fred on MSN.

Smelly Sue: You're so fat, when i walked over you, i gave God a Hi-Five.

Fat Fred: You're so smelly, when Ashlee Simpson smelt you. she went for
another nose job! hahah.

Ugly Betty: You're so stupid, you thought Tiger Woods was a forest in India.

Dumb Dick: You'ae soo ugli that you'ae Momma had ta get drung before boobs-
feeding you. Now take that!

haha.when studying really screws up your mind, you'll need a dose of this.

2007-09-23T06:57:00.000-07:00

yes yes Prelims are like so over.
but the Big Momma ain't here yet.
lets see i have exactly 16 more days to practs
and omfg.27 more days to Big Momma's arrival.
wish me luck man.

and something i think every freaking person mugging like
right now would know.
studying gains you pounds man.
damnit.i feel like a overblown yet wrinkled balloon.
munching on that damn bag of chips and not moving
your ass even to get that ringing phone.
the flabs just sets in man.
but hey, i'm not aneroxic.
and and eye bags.they are horrible.
i think they are huge enough to be like what?
airbags? fuck.

studying, disfigures.

2007-09-20T06:55:00.000-07:00

and yes. we just found out we look so alike.

2007-09-20T03:45:00.000-07:00

i thought it was forever for you and me.
i did loved you.
but you just didn't see it.

the game of accomplishing something of yours.
and reuniting.
is still on.
if you know what i mean that is.

2007-09-06T21:13:00.000-07:00

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said

Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Oh baby bring on the pain
And listen to the thunder

2007-09-06T20:32:00.000-07:00

hello! it's been yeons eh.

blame it on darn exams.

it sucks the time out of you.

oh well anyway,

teacher's day was a blast.as always.

the only time to get away from the books.

what the hell is wrong with me?

i don't know what to say.

life is meaningless.for now that is.

BUT.

for fun.the time.i see.is approaching.

hehehh.

seeing you on stage.with that song.

was one of my favourite days.

thank you.

2007-08-05T07:52:00.000-07:00

Woman:
I've been living with a shadow over head
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past I just can't seem to move on

Man:
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

Together:
All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it true without a way back into love
Oh oh

Woman:
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's gotta be something for my soul somewhere

Man:
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some directions
I'm open to your suggestion

Together:
All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me decide again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

baby.you found me a way back into love.
i love you, ed.

2007-08-01T06:19:00.001-07:00

Dear Sycophant,

School has been rather serene and much enjoyable without your presence here. We don't have to avoid walking different paths abruptly when you finally appear infront of us. The point is, we can't even see you from far. Neither do we have to give ourselves scares when we see your loathsome face appearing from someone who was initially towering over you.

Well, thats not the whole point i'm penning this 'delighting' letter to you. Hows the weather over there now? And oh, the routines. Hope it doesn't tire the hell out of you eh. And the hotel room? Have you checked its history? We wouldent want you waking up in the middle of the night, while taking a piss, see a grotesque face staring back at you in the mirror. While screaming your lungs out, you realised that was only your reflection in there. How stupid of you to actually think that it was a spirit out there to spook you. They do not have that much time as a matter of fact.

Anyway, i hope your performances are going well too. It would be really awful if the press takes a photo, revealing that massive black forest down there while you were attempting a split, turns out that someone forgot to get a bikini wax huh. How embaressing.

Lastly, while you're there, try not to wonder around the red-light districts at night. People there are rather shallow, they might mistake you for one of those that provides those sleazy services. You woulden't want your boyfriend back here, wasting money to catch a flight all the way there to kick that guy's nuts but ended getting slapped, don't you? Oh wait, that sounds really familiar right? Must have happened before.

Thats all for now i guess. Take care of yourself. We really woulden't want to see you in a wheelchair with a broken ankle,while doing those pirouettes and all, when you're back yea?

With Love,

Cheryl.

2007-07-28T08:38:00.001-07:00

thank you guys for the splendid getogether tonight!

Crabshack and Liquid Kitchen.aww you guys.
you guys mean a hell lot to me.

i love you all. <3

2007-07-27T21:14:00.000-07:00

oh finally.
last week's torturous days are over.

can you imagine like half the week you are having

mock exams continuously?

tell me about it.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!

hell yes i'm finally 16.

it's not everyday you get to enter

underage partys legally.

walk into some rated NC16 shows man.

enjoy the bliss. :)

thank you guys for everything.

especially my dear Eddie.

2007-07-21T09:19:00.000-07:00

alright i'm back.
i loved Sirius.but he died.
here goes,

After everything.phew.

2007-07-21T02:59:00.000-07:00

thats all for now.
i'm going to watch Harry in action.
like finally.haha.

2007-07-13T09:34:00.000-07:00

Come with me.

We took a back road.

We're gonna look at the stars.

We took a backroad in my car.

Down to the ocean,

it’s only water and sand

And in the ocean we'll hold hands.

Don't you wanna come with me?

Don't you wanna feel my bones

on your bones?

It's only natural.

costumes?

2007-07-11T08:13:00.000-07:00

this goes out to you, Grandma.

it has been three days since you left us all.
for the past three days, everytime i stood next to your coffin.
glancing at you teary-eyed.it seems as though any minute from now
you're gonna open your eyes and tell me it had all been a bad dream.
and that you're gonna live forever.even pass my 18th birthday.
see me holding my driver's liscense.putting on the veil over my head
on my wedding day.and holding your great-grandchildren in your arms.
but as reality settles in.you're still there.eyes closed yet a radiant smile
over your face. you're really gone.
to a better place.where all your sufferings have been lifted.
where you sit high up watching over us.
i'm sorry, i wasn't there for your last few minutes.
but you'll always be etched in my memory.
the times when we spent figuring out how Chinese came about.
watching cook shows every afternoon.
and all the other uncountable yet memorable moments.

grandma.i love you.

2007-07-07T00:05:00.001-07:00

oh yeah.

HAPPY EARTH DAY!

save the earth.

stop poaching.

eat your greens.

stop AIDS.

stop the killing.

wear Green.

2007-07-07T00:05:00.000-07:00

i'm gonna bring you down.
down all the way that you regretted
ever betraying me.my trust and friendship.
you used me all this while trying
to save your goddamn ass.
not only that. you denied your crap.
you took my once upon a time love away.
you told him stuff that only you did.not me.
you made me suffer in tremendous pain while
i prowled maliciously for that asshole who told him
and you could still tell me its Jaryl.you fucking liar.
i will like to stress that you cheated on everyone.
yes.everyone.oh yeah.i think backstabbings included too.
consider yourself unfortunate because i hate people
who betrayed me.and since almost all your
backstabbings.dirty secrets and crap are kept
with me.it adds up you being dead.
you perfidious little bitch.
i guess without me.you're one friend short.
oh wait.i'm sorry but you do not have any friendsat all.
i think it went like this "Cheryl.i think you're only friend,
everyone hates me.you gotta save me."
haha.i know you're trying to suck up to everyone
gaining their sympathy and trying to take sides.
but girl, no one is gonna trust you.so stop fluanting
your pretentious and pathetic face.everyone can
see through your cunning plot.
oh yeah.i'm not apologizing for blowing your cover
about all your dirty secrets to Bobby and Jun Xiong.
Bob has the right to know.and i can ensure you.
he did not cheat on you the whole while.you cheated
on him.and in case you forgot.i did not cheat on Ridwan either
you made everything up from your stupid brain.
sounds familiar eh? "don't be stupid.use your brain la! "
how was it like losing him that day after getting back not long
before? you make me lose mine.you pay for it bitch.

2007-07-01T08:00:00.000-07:00

HELLO.
well i'm supposed to be sleeping at this hour.

but hah. i'm munching on fattening chips

trying to kill that aneroxic look of mine.haha.

actually.i just came back from town not long ago.

it started at arab street though. i wanted to get some

cheap vintage stuff there but.according to that silly boyfriendof mine,saying that it would be opened today.turned out to be closed

well most of em la. i didn't really find what i wanted though.

so we headed down to town to meet.Paul Zach and Elizabeth.

Yunhan came along too. hanged around and around.

yeah you knew what came next.

me sitting here still munching on those fattening chips.

and please i'm not obsessed with weight loss habits.it actually

freaks me out. im serious.

2007-06-29T23:22:00.000-07:00

hello world and all.
it has been a long long time
it's all bout burying your head in
tremendous amounts of worksheets and sums.
everyone has to go through this phase i guess.
savour it instead of cursing the whole entire world.
and so.i've been spending my time studying.and.
i should have continued studying at Thomson Plaza
and not go to AMK central.or my darling wallet would
still be with me.
Damn that Motherfucker who took my wallet.URGH!
i dont have a single indentification on me now! fuck.
oh well.whats gone is gone.
but thanks guys for going up and down.real sorry.haha.
Ed.you were so nice to rush all the way down from Home.
down here.thank you so so much. :D
i promise i would be more cautious from now on.

i want more bangs and bings

2007-06-17T08:15:00.000-07:00

yes,those two retards. and the one taking

the photo.i don't look so bad with that shirt la.

hmm.Chloe and Nic i think thats you. haha!

and Gwen. and i see Nic again. hah.

and so you've seen. that was yesterday.

at Home. oh i love Cuts.

theres nothing better than dancing wildly

in the middle of the dancefloor.haha.

Haziq.you left too early man. what a waste.

oh well.

see you all.its monday again.

2007-06-13T07:48:00.000-07:00

oh my god.
what am i attending school in the middle of the holidays?
they said. 'intensive'.
and it sure is man. oh no no no no.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM.

i love you.and i know you adore me.haha.

I still don't have the reason

And you don't have the time

And it really makes me wonder

If I ever gave a fuck about you

Give me something to believe in

Cause I don't believe in you anymore

Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to try

So this is goodbye.

yes.i've gotta a new man.a better man.

humphrey.we're leaving.

2007-06-10T00:55:00.000-07:00

went to Substation last night.

somehow reluctantly.

But i still enjoyed Heritage's performance.

that guys like multi-tasker-talented.

and oh. the drummer ultra rock man.

i'm having a stick-thing on my forehead.

and i can't go out and play. boo-hoo.

CUTS this Saturday. Anyone?

2007-06-09T00:41:00.000-07:00

and there they are. my lovelies.

2007-06-06T18:50:00.000-07:00

and so i'm up early today

cause some dickhead turned the damn aircon off!

so i decided to turn on that old school computer of mine

and check the virtual world out.
and since i was sneezing badly.

i decided to take a tiny puff.please don't nag.

and when i was at Ferdi's blog.

it brought me back to those old days where we used to

sit 'beneath the stairs' gossiping.staring at weirdos from Shalom.

comparing each other's cute little socks.awaiting.training.that was how life used to be after school.

NOW?

we so need a reunion my dear girls.

and so now.i'm gonna leave this screen for town with my other besties to have major shopping!

2007-06-02T09:36:00.000-07:00

Seven hours.

Town.

Sales everywhere.

with,

Four insanely hilarious people.

Phew!

yes.i did shopping today and i'm

proud of myself. :D

Girlfriends.i know most of us are

devastated by our horrendous

results that we have grounded ourselves.

but we have to get our ass there before

its too damn late! haha.

oh well. i love coloured stockings.

okay that was ultra random.

P.S Sreena.heels are killers aren't they?

2007-05-31T10:45:00.000-07:00

thank you boyfriend. :D

for buying those adorable cupcakes today,

they are so so wonderfully done up that i can't

bear to eat it up. haha.

LOVE LOVE LOVE.

this saturday.

the one and only day left for Freedom.

after that it's all back to the books.

god bless me. amen.

2007-05-26T08:30:00.000-07:00

well well well.

its been long since i visited this page.

so whats up lately?

mugging for O 'levels or hitting the streets

because the Great Singapore Sale is here?!

sadly it's actually staying home day and night

to flip through those cheena notes.

come to think of it. chinese aint that bad.

i'm serious! i actually made improvement!

like from D7 to B3. hows that man?! haha.

hope everything goes smoothly this monday.

hmmmmm.

and after that this shopaholic sitting infront of

this screen can shop till she drops!

WOOOOHOOOOO.

2007-05-16T08:15:00.000-07:00

OH MY GOD!

MIKA

i so so so adore him can.

wow wheeee!

2007-05-14T10:32:00.000-07:00

hello tiny blobs of dirt.

i find studying more enjoyable than freedom.

damn i know i'm weird. but seriously.

oh well. today's agenda was more or less a bore.

lets just forget it.

and oh Hezwan,

that sex maniac arsehole can fuck his mom's

pussy and perish in the thick foilage. amen.

its referring to some fucker that we met at Ang Mo Kio

train station. i swear he needs to..urgh.

The Smoky Heads. WHEE.

don't ask me whats that.

tomorrow would be another miserable chapter of life.

god damnit.

2007-05-11T20:16:00.000-07:00

okay i should be saying this like two days ago?

Exams are like over! OVER man.

but i was too occupied enjoying the bliss of it.

ouh what the hell.

lets see whats the one thing girls will do when they are free?

like duh. shopping.

and so we went down to bugis on Thursday.

ouh it was a wonderful. just look.

look at their faces. HILARIOUS!

2007-05-04T08:41:00.000-07:00

one whole week of non-stop mugging.

and a total of nine papers sat for.

another week left before i can

officially set foot out of my house

for other entertaining purposes besides

going to school and tution.

neither is it going down to the mini-mart

to get another pack of cigerettes.

finally it's Friday.no wait.

Saturdays' here already.

it better be.i need the weekends badly.

if not there will be a severe rage of

cataclysm near all of us boy.hah.

i mean who can take it?

boo fus.

2007-05-01T06:09:00.000-07:00

hello world.

went to Uncle Ringo's funfair last night.

oh it was awesome! hah.

candy floss.bumper cars.massive swings.

reliving the childhood fantasies.

i wonder when Cigarettes Sex is gonna

beat Caracal.haha.

i wonder if my dog is taking a poop

right now.

i wonder if i could have a vampire as my

boyfriend.

i wonder why.ouh forget it.

2007-04-28T20:58:00.000-07:00

once again.
this blogging thing is getting boring.
i'm sick of sticking my fingers onto the alphabets
in the keyboard.

time for serious cramming.
the damn exams are like here for christ's sake!
i want to reach out to you but somehow you're
too far away.
i keep falling while trying.
but still i continue despite falling deeper.
deeper into your trap.
and i'll get you out of there. i will.

toodles world.

2007-04-19T08:31:00.000-07:00

well hello there.
it's been a long time i'm sure.
things have been picking up lately.
well in a way i should say.
i shan't talk bout it i guess.it'll aggravate the situation.

and to you mister dimwit.
word of advice:
fuck yourself and perish.
being with you was all a mistake.

oh yea! guys! check this out.
www.aalteam.blogspot.com
some awesome blog can.

yeap thats all for now.
toodles!

2007-04-04T02:31:00.000-07:00

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this timeI never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blindBut I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleepOnly in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this why
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see itCouldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

you'll never know.
obvious who its going out to.
maybe he'll be better off without me.
just know.i really do love you.
and memories will stay cut inside.

2007-03-31T03:26:00.000-07:00

zomg!

Last night was definately one night to remember for life!
who woulden't when you went to Mount Pleasant Cemetry
at night?! Haha.
yeah.Zach.Mortin.Yong Lian.Titus.Adora.
Derrick.Jude.Miguel.Eileen.Darryl.Amanda.
freaking creepy shit i tell you.
some abilities of the unatural some of us have
are just so unproclaimed. hmm.

my boyfriend is missing!
hello?

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

for you.

2007-03-31T03:18:00.000-07:00

PURPLE LIGHTS!

went to the Levis show at SFF with
Eileen.Char.Derrick.Lucas.Joel.Zach.
met up with Eunice.Julianne.Shirley.
Sarah.Jude.Miguel.at Subway.
whats with the names?haha.
well anyway.we went Purple Lights!
BOoze!

oh mandy.oh mandy.oh mandy!

pictures can be found at the Jiggsters' blog.
look i'm promoting it for you guys! haha.

2007-03-25T00:28:00.000-07:00

rise and shine to the dying world.

i only got 4 hours of sleep today! bad.

last night was Awesome! thanks guys for everything. :3

the night is so sacred. i wished the world was always dark.

oh well we went to purple lights to chill and Cam-whored!

caught the latest movie at 3.35.

bean man. its a seriously dumb movie. he can't get

any dumber than that.my god. i cant stand him.

okay fine.enough about him.

like can you imagine if he was your boyfriend?

just go kill yourself. haha.

yeah i love you guys.

and Derrick.no more Heart pain pain

damn.i can't believe i typed it out.EWW.

and stop puffing.it'll kill you.haha.

Jude.totally nothing to say.AHHA.

2007-03-24T04:07:00.000-07:00

i'm still having chinese idioms and stuff hovering in my brains.
i can't believe i made myself wake up at 4 am in the morning to
memorise chinese. like when did i ever have interest in those writings?
and guess what it paid off! it came out for the zuo wen part.
so i guess i'll be able to pass on paper 1 alone.
however paper 2 was a total letdown.haha.
i fell asleep reading the passage.! yeah i'm the best.haha.
still i'm glad its finally over.

i'm so into the mugging mode and all. i might just start chewing
my textooks and worksheets like soon.haha.
so people out there.mug hard. :D

mugging sessions gone wild.

2007-03-20T03:12:00.000-07:00

okay fine.
i admit that i'm Emo.
its growing each day.like some poison thats taking over me
the undersized shirts and skinny jeans that stock up in my closet
each day.the symbolic eyeliner i draw.and the hair that just hides my face
my mom thinks i'm a ghost.hah.
i may even go to the extent of writing suicidal poems and slashing wrists and all.
but i like it. it helps to ease the pain i have.for now i hope.
god.i really am going crazy.

i don't know what esle to say.
i just hope i'm not forcing you to do stuff that you don't want.
but it really makes me bleed to part.
just want you to know. if you even bother.
Tata.

P.S : Derrick and Jude.if you see this.
I love you guys.thanks for being there.

2007-03-15T06:52:00.000-07:00

hello all again.
to update on yesterday.
it was our class's BBQ partaye!
although not the whole class turned up.
but we still did have hell lots of fun. :D
and oh! i love Mr Song's kid!
so ador-able! haha.
i'll link up the images soon i hope.
here are just a few.

anyways!
today was another fruitful day.
look.i don't sound so Emo anymore!
but really.i developed a fondness
towards little kids today.yea.
what an acheivement ehh.
especially Tricia and Vanessa from
You Jing's group.nice kids they are.
you see.i used tot hink that all kids that
are younger than me resembles my
monster cousin. a pain in my arse.
but actually they are not except for a
few rascals who even at the age of 8
know what the hell 'doggy style' is.haha.
but it was really enjoyable. :D
it gives me a sense of belonging.that i can
do my part to help someone in society.
and this is not crap.

there will be pictures soon!

and hello people out there.
i'm just a little teeny Emo can.
now take that.

2007-03-13T07:28:00.000-07:00

hello all.
it's been a real long day today.
had to drag my self out of bed this morning
to attend history lessons.
still.i attended it because i love Hitler.haha.
i was forced into Physics.urgh.
still i managed to stay alive and still
solve how a Reed Relay Circuit works! haha.
and as for studying for Geography.
it wasn't that bad.
in fact.i like Geography. cool.

chomp chomp.
theres nothing better than having dinner
with your Brothers.haha.
you get high without even taking a drag.
imagine a glass of sugarcane larger than your face.
stingray spicier than anything esle.
and yeah you get the picture.haha.
it was basically real high.
still waiting for jingo's photos. :D

this part here is exceptional:
i wonder if exceptional is the right word to use.
oh what the heck.

i read your post.
it's strange that you said it only now.
i didn't actually think that you would even
feel this way.
you know how i feel bout you.don't you?
ever since the start.
yes it has indeed been difficult for me sometimes
knowing that you can't be there for me all the time.
but you gave me happiness all along baby.
you just didn't know it.
every little gesture.every touch.every kiss.
i feel it.and i appreciate it.i really do.

i'll always be right here
and no where esle.
thats an assurance i pledge to you.
j'adore

2007-03-09T19:10:00.000-08:00

hello blog and all out there again.
its the holidays!
but it doesn't feel like it at all.
imagine you hafta go back to school almost everyday
of the week for remedials and more remedials.
urghhh.
but at least i won't be rotting at home
if it weren't for the remedials.
and so look forward to our class BBQ on wed. :D
oh well.got back my report slip yesterday.
i failed add-maths and chinese.
which is so expected.haha.

went prawning at Bishan last night.
with lets see.Ridwan.Andre.Yan Binn.
Wenting.Yunhan.Juliet.Yong Wei.and one more
guy whom i think hes philosophy of life is damn cool.
Wenting caught the most. :)
yeah.we are going back there again next week!

hafta get back mugging now.
ciao.

2007-03-05T06:05:00.000-08:00

and for the last time im saying.
I AM NOT EMO!
i just happened to slash my wrists was because i was drunk
in the toilet of Liquid Kitchen and Mitch was like seriously slitting
i found it funny so i laughed and she slashed me.yes she slashed me.
and so we were like happily slashing.like what the fcuk.
reminds me of Happy Tree Friends?
except we aren't to the extend of poking each other's eyeballs.

but come to think of it. the pain from the knife kinda eased the pain
i had in reality.surprising i know.even Serena thinks so.haha.
maybe slashing your wrist is rather an effective way to shut all
those fucked up problems you have.hmmmm.
okay maybe i am really becoming Emo.urr.
oh whatever.like i give a damn.

yeah so here i am.blogging and boozing at Marie's place.
feeling all so Emo.like the world doesn't know my existence.
fuck fuck fuckety fuck.
okay i'm drunk.
haha.

2007-03-03T05:47:00.000-08:00

hello blog.and all.

i so don't feel like blogging now.

but what the heck.

i'm slacking.real badly in my studies.

like i failed my A-maths.

and i think Chinese too.urgh.

the other subjects were just average.

someone.anyone.make me study! AHH.

oh well.

there's nothing much to talk about.

guess i'll just upload pictures to kill time.

charmainee.

boyfriend.

wheeee.